Figuring Out My Place In Time And Space: 9 Years Not Married, 6 Months of Bliss

When will a date stop reminding you of the past. How long until that day is just a day another day that passes on by.

June 2nd, would have been my ex-husband and I's 9 year wedding anniversary. Technically we are still married. The divorce is taking longer than either one of us expected.

New happy head shots by Bloom Portraits!

Today, over a year later, I am happily moved on, but the memories still linger. Pandora played our wedding song today. It was the first time I had heard it in 9 years. We were together for fourteen. That many memories are hard to forget. I almost wish I could just delete them, but I learned so much about what I want, need and deserve to thrive in a relationship to forget.

*The type of love I need.
*What interests my partner and I need to.
*Comprimise
*Affection
*Attention
*Excitement
*Support
*Positivity

Throughout my 100 Cups Of Coffee journey, I learned even more about what things are most important to me in a relationship. Then, when I least expected it, I finally found all of those things in Ocean Eyes.

Ocean Eyes is the kindest and most generous person I know. He's always there to help a friend, throw an awesome party or just cuddle.

I don't know how I got so lucky. Out of the millions of people in LA, in Denver and the world we came together because my BFF Being Geek Chic decided to have a working brunch at Onefold while I was visiting her this past December in Denver. I soon realized Ocean Eyes had all those things on my list. But I wasn't ready. That was six months ago today.

What I was ready for was fun and to see if Denver could be my home. Thanks to a push from my BFF I took a chance with Ocean Eyes. We had our very first date the night we met. We had fun, but I couldn't tell if he like me. I still missing LA. I wasn't going too get attached.

At the end of December and one month of dating and I still wasn't ready, I decided I was ready to move to Denver though. I needed a fresh start, to be close to family and friends, begin a career and start a life on my own for the very first time in my life. 

Two months into dating and only two weeks living in Denver I finally was feeling settled in my place and had a job, a few. Ocean Eyes had slowly, patiently and carefully molded my heart and I couldn't wait until Valentine's Day to ask him to be my boyfriend, so we made it official on the couch of my very first place.  I asked him.

Three months in and he hosted an amazing birthday party for me making pizza from scratch and asking all my friends to bring pie. Everyone came, everyone had fun. That night I fell in love with him.

Four months in and we survive our first fight. 

Five months in and we went on our first vacation together to my LA. We ate all the pie, saw all the concerts and he met all the people who helped me through this past year. He impressed them all. I was already impressed. That week together made me begin to dream about a future together.

Today, at six months I can't believe I get to stare into this man's eyes and see back exactly how I feel. What I've always wanted to see and feel but was almost too scared to search for. 

He loves me, talks with me, is my cheerleader, sits with me, holds me, makes me laugh, tells me I'm beautiful everyday, shares his house and pets with me, cooks for me and is there anytime for anything. He is my #mcm today and into the future we are already dreaming up together. 

{I am forever Figuring Out My Place In Time And Space. Learn and grow with me by reading my other heart felt and often over sharing articles!}